Sunday, August 16

And there was always the bend in the road…

        Some things in life, don’t turn out the way you want em to….  Some things you experience now, would have seemed far-fetched (not impossible) previously.  The context is not about things you repent now.  Things that give you that tingly feeling all over.  The niiiiiiicest things J

        Such things come to happen in everybody’s life.  Till then, you are damn sure it can’t happen in your life, of all things.  You had no opinion whatsoever on it previously, you happily believed the above.  But now that it has become an epoch in your life, its too good to let go.  You feel strong, confident, daring and all nice things you would like to associate with yourself, like never before.  You are happy with your projection to the outside world.  Your happiness is contagious to the people around you.  These things could be anything, widely varying between different kinds of people.  A lot of trivial things could be it.  Some call it love, some call it friendship, some can never come up with a word to associate it with, for them its beyond words.  You would come to believe it’s the reason for your existence.  And very often it is. 

        Then, I see no reason why you shouldn’t pursue it.  You’ve all the criteria required to pursue it.  Vibrations do exist in the world.  You keep thinking about something and there’s a high chance it’ll come true.  Put your heart and soul into anything and its bound to be good.  Life is not random.  You can influence it to an extent you can never imagine. 

        Coz, there’s always the bend in the road.  You’ll never know what lays ahead, very often it’s the nicest things- you had no idea they existed J. 

Smile a mile,

Anne (pronounced Ann, spelled with an e).

P.S. If you've still got doubts on the pursuing part, watch "Pursuit of Happyness" :)

Saturday, August 15

Too good!!

Close my eyes (Butterfly) - Mariah Carey

I was a wayward child 
With the weight of the world
That I held deep inside
Life was a winding road
And I learned many things
Little ones shouldn't know

But I closed my eyes
Steadied my feet on the ground
Raised my head to the sky
And let times roll by
Still I feel like that child 
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up a little too soon

Funny how one can learn 
To grow numb to the madness 
And block it away
I left the worst unsaid
Let it all dissipate
And I try to forget

As I close my eyes
Steady my feet on the ground
Raise my head to the sky
And let time roll by
Still I feel like a child 
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up a little too soon

Nearing the edge
Oblivious I almost
Fell right over 
A part of me
Will never be quite able
To feel stable
That woman-child feeling inside
Was on the verge of fading 
Thankfully I 
Woke up in time

Guardian angel I
Sail away on an ocean 
With you by my side
orange clouds roll by 
They burn into your image 
And you're still alive
(You're always alive)

As I close my eyes 
Steady my feet on the ground 
Raise my head to the sky
And though time rolls by 
Still I feel like a child 
As I look at the moon
Maybe I grew up a little too soon 

Saturday, August 1

Bedlam broke loose - Right inside my head!!!!

The past two weeks has been one hell of a REALIZATION period...

Come on mate, my teens are over and its now I'm beginning to realise myself. Is this part of becoming mature?? I thought I already am. This truth was like a slap on my face. People just casually come my way and tell stuff I din think were odd.

Realization !

A friend of mine, simply took my mobile to read my msgs. This is weird, right? Well it isn't to him, and I really din bother, cos there was nothing personal that others shouldn't read. So, I let him. He went through my outbox and said "You send such formal msgs. Who cares to reply?" That was the context. And, Sslaaaaaaaaaapppp!!! I set my face, like I din care about it. But it kept reeling on and on in my head. And sitting in class the other day and I don't recall how the topic came about, but my mate Sam says, "You and send such formal msgs. It is very curt. I don feel like continuing the conversation!!" And, Sslaaaaaaaaaaaaappppp!! Again, in room, I tell my room-mate all this and she is like, "Yes, I've noticed this. You don't even put dots after your words let alone a smiley. Why're you so formal?" Sslaaaap!!

Darn it mate, why am I so formal? when there is absolutely no necessity to be so.

Realization @

July is such a special month to me, "My b'day falls on this month"
And I wanted all the posts on this month to signify something special.
I keep thinking
as to what I should be writing about
and lo, July is gone.

Why wasn't I able to write the first thing that pops into my head?

I compose my posts in MSWord and then post it here. It never was a type-and-go thing for me.
I take a lot of care before posting. Why? when its not necessary?

Realization #

This realization was brought about from a really funny incident in room. My room mate's got a fish bowl, with two really cute gold fish in em (I've named them nakki and pakki... he he) We forgot the species of fish (Us geeky engineering idiots got stuck with the species name). My roommate was like "Mammalia, reptilia" I laughed at all that and said "Aquaria". Everybody laughed cos its "Pisces"
The reptilia roommate was laughing over my "Aquaria" answer and I sitting on the bunker hit her with my pillow. The pillow cover caught her in the eye and it instantly became red and all swollen. She was suffering and I felt bad like anything. All the laughter was now replaced with REGRET. It was then I realised I'm a girl and supposed to behave like one. God, I feel so bad even now :( Me, realizing I ought to behave like a girl. Very funny, right?

Even now, before my @ realization I was reading through all my friends posts and that helped me with this one. Thanks LV, Michelle, vaishu and harini for helping me :)

Anne (pronounced Ann, spelled with an e).